Humble Boldness

  Near the end of elementary school I won the worst prize in my life: a pair of glasses straps/cords.  My friends told me they were cool, but they were not.  I had two different kinds: a red pair with basketballs and a green pair with soccer balls; I wore them at the front end of my glasses.  They were a part of my every day appearance until the beginning of middle school when I became an easy target to be made fun of and picked on.  I had glasses, braces, glasses straps, acne, and was pretty nerdy and quirky, not the greatest combination to become cool and the most popular in your school!   Why do I start there?  For a lot of my life I’ve felt uncomfortable in my own skin.  It's kind of a weird phrase when you think about it.  It implies that you are something more than what others can see on the outside, your skin.  I was made fun of and picked on in elementary school and middle school. In first grade I even tried to change my name ...

  When I was in High School I received my calling into ministry.  However, my calling was shaped long before that time.  I don't have a date or time or moment when I remember walking the aisle or giving my life to Christ.  In fact, there isn't a time in my life that I can remember not believing in God.  Some people have this similar experience, we grew up in the church, have always known God since we were kids, and feel ashamed of our testimony.  But I feel so blessed to have known God from an early age.  God gave me an early love for Him and His Word.  From the end of elementary school onward I read the Bible every single night, until my devotional times changed in college.    My youth ministry also played a significant role in my calling.  I found a family of friends, used my musical talents to worship God, and became a leader.  I felt confident, loved, and at home.  It was in this setting, at youth group that God ca...

(Taken May 3, 2020)   From the beginning of our marriage, my wife and I have had a garden.  A month after we were married we moved out to Littleon, Colorado where I started school at Denver Seminary.  We loved that whole experience and the community we lived in at the seminary.  While living there, the seminary campus, they developed some raised bed gardens for the community to use.  We signed up for one and my wife took the lead on what to plant and how to garden.  Side note funny story, one year we had some foreign exchange students gardening next to us and they decided to pick all of our green tomatoes and give them to us.  I'm still confused by that whole experience...   For many years gardening was my wife's hobby.  When we moved to Missouri we put in our own raised bed garden (because all the soil in Missouri is really just glorified clay!).  As another side note, I'm realizing that my brother-in-laws have helped tremendou...

  For most of my life I have longed for a mentor. In high school my youth pastor, Tim Kurth, and I met monthly for dinner. I would ask questions, he would answer. A little bit one sided but it was very helpful and formative for my calling to ministry. In college I had Bill McClure. He was the pastor of our small EFCA church. Such a great disciple making pastor. We met weekly at this smoky restaurant in downtime Valpo for breakfast. I remember studying Daniel together and sharing some hard moments together. In Seminary I had Mark Hallock. I still feel like a spiritual shrimp next to him. He is so impressive, encouraging, and just life giving. However, in Missouri I struggled to find a true mentor. I tried to reach out to some people but it was usually one sided and not exactly what was helpful for me.   And then I was introduced to Tom. Tom Clegg. When I was first introduced to Tom, it wasn’t my idea nor was I particularly fond of it. We were in a difficult time period with ou...

  I grew up in a very different kind of youth ministry. There were no games. No gross foods. No small groups. No fun camp trips. What you ask was it? Mini church for students.   My youth pastor, Tim Kurth, had a new model for youth ministry that I’ve never seen anywhere else. First, we had confirmation for middle school. This is pretty common in a Lutheran church. We learned the basic doctrines of Christianity, the story-line of the Bible, and had to write out our testimony. I later leaned that my testimony was based on the two EE questions. Unfortunately, a lot of the youth group graduated from church at that point.   Second, there was Sunday School. I don’t remember much about middle school Sunday School but High School was basically a topical study small group with 10-15 people. I remember one lesson told from the perspective of the sheep at the manger scene, but I can’t remember anything else. But, I do remember liking my teachers.   Next we had Work Camps. Ev...

  From June to December, 2016, my life changed dramatically.  In June, Pastor Andy Veith left Lighthouse to pastor a church in Fargo, ND.  He hired me.  I loved working for him.  He was the founding and lead pastor for the last 15+ years at our church.  And like that, he was gone.  The church was figuratively left in my hands to lead as the interim senior pastor.  In August our third child was born, James.  He is really the joy of my life.  I love his sweet and comical spirit.  In November I officially became the Lead Pastor at Lighthouse.  Finally, in December, on December 23, I found out I had Type 2 Diabetes.   In mid December I felt something strange going on.  I felt tired all the time.  I remember waiting at the Toyota Dealership for my car to be worked on, waiting in the large waiting room and almost falling asleep.  I've never fallen asleep in public in my entire life!  I had blurry vision....

  I love coffee.  I blame my brother and my son, Mitchell.  I can remember my first cup of coffee.  I was working on a project at Peace Lutheran Church in Lombard, IL, building something outside with some other men. Maybe I was in high school.  Some of the men wanted some coffee so I took some too.  It tasted awful.  But I felt like a man that day.  And in my head I knew, men drink coffee.   I don't think I drank another cup of coffee until I was 25, at least not real coffee.  I drank a lot of soda, mostly Coke and Code Red Mountain Dew as a kid, so I had the caffeine intake already going on.  But when my son Mitchell was born in 2011 I felt the need for coffee.  It wasn't about being a man, but it was more about wanting to feel awake after being up with him all night.  Mitchell was a fussy baby and we were new parents.  Oh what I would have done differently if knew what I knew now!  But with being a youth minis...